On Merlins bad days he was Not Merlin he was a snapping grumpy monster, for me I didn't want to remember that Merlin.
Ps You people have no idea how many rolls of tp it took for me to write my earlier post. It was the first time I ever talked about it even with my family. I feel much better now. I felt I would be selfish to wait until he felt bad. I wanted him to have a fun day for his last. Thats just me Each of you must make your own choices if you have the opputunity.