Oh Donna, as you know, I am in the same boat. When you care for cats like we do, those of us in rescue know how utterly exhausting it can be. I don't know how Jan does it... she keeps on going while the rest of us burn out on just 3 or 4 fosters. I think I'd have seriously lost my mind by now if I worked outside of the home - or would it have helped me since I would actually get out instead of being locked in the stinky smelly house with hissy Pouncer?

Anyway, FABULOUS news about the farm! Woohoo! I know it kills you to rehome them. I do know you tried EVERYTHING. You investigated every idea and trick to see they just didn't work in the case of these two kitties. Trying is all we can do.

For those of you not in rescue.... imagine giving your whole heart to these cats, loving them, caring for them, tryign to figure out what makes them tick... all the while trying to make your own personal cats happy that new cats come and go all the time. There's so much guilt tied to it, and yet you are compelled to help because you kow you make a difference in the lives of the cats you help. I never expected fostering to be so emotional and exhausting. After all, whats one more mouth to feed? What an extra litterbox to scoop? It goes so far beyond extra food and litter. You get your hopes up when someone is interested... you get your heart broken when they walk away.

Oh, I am rambling, forgive me. I am just emotionally spent right now and trying to explain to non-rescuers just what happens and how we reach this breaking point.