I guess the hardest part is watching my poor husband suffer. I wish that I could just make my illness go away so I can dedicacte my energy to helping him. He is a really good guy and to see him like this at only 25 is heartbreaking.

I've only been with him for three years but to loose him now would distroy me.

He is really bad off today...and since I missed work yesterday I had to come in today. It's taking every thing I have to not tell everyone to F off and just go home to be with him. I know though that loosing my job would only make things worse for us both.

I hope he doesn't end up in the ER again. They won't do jack for him except make him even more uncomfortable.