My first thought to your question is "To Live". I want TO LIVE! I want to strive to always be happy. I admit that it can be hard at times but I don't ever want to give up. Life is too precious!

Happy things for me are being with my husband, my family and my friends. These are people that love me and that makes me very happy. My GIRLS! They make me very happy and make me smile and giggle every day...lol.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. I wish we could help you somehow. Gini has a wonderful answer for you. You should consider doing something like that. I'll be thinking about you and wishing you all the best.