Kirsten,

I'm sitting hear with tears in my eyes! What a terribly sad story, but you can't blame yourself. You were young and the diseases were not as common knolwedge as they are today. I am sorry that she suffered, I know how it must hurt, but you didn't know and you had other things going on in your life. There weren't any beautiful sites like this one with so many caring people to give input to help us diagnose or at least know when a problem has presented itself. If you knew then what you do now things would certainly have been different and I am sure that Aysche understands. She is at the RB and is all healthy. Someday you will meet and she will show you that she holds nothing against you and loves you and remembers the good times that you shared. Please try not to be to hard on yourself.