OH, HOW SAD! I wish we didn't have to experience such sadness as a price for the love and warmth we feel when we love our pets so much, and vice-versa. But I'd never give up the emotional closeness with my pets in order to avoid the pain that will come when we have to be separated. I'm sure you feel the same way...... Please, let the memories comfort you, and know that he is not in any pain now, and is happily playing at the Rainbow Bridge while he waits for you there........