I went through this when we captured one of our first feral litters. We had a precious calico that a person from work took. For some reason I always regretted giving her up. I would check periodically on her, then decided to quit being a pest. A couple years later I checked again only to find out she had died. Now I wish I never really knew what happened. Sometimes it's just best to not know. Good luck and I hope your hear back on yours real soon.