Originally posted by lizbud
I really can't believe so many here think that they are not
pretty, beautiful, attractive,etc. Just what kind of
standard are you using to judge yourselves?
I guess it's just an ingrained thing for me. I was always the ugly kid that everyone taunted and made fun of. I barely even remember 1st-8th grade because it was so horrible. I've actually blocked most of those years out of my life.
I went to a private school, so I was with the same mean 20 people for 8 years. I hated it. People made me cry all the time and picked on me.
Things were better in high school, since there were so many more people to choose from, but I still had people make fun of me because I'm not pretty like all the other girls

College was by far the best, because everyone is anonymous and by then, I think people are way more mature. I guess you could say that low self-esteem was implanted in my by years of torment. Plus, the media does nothing to help.

I really do wish I had a better view of myself, but I don't. Especially now that I'm fat, I feel even worse. I just don't know how to feel better.