The vet came yesterday and took Roscoe with him, although I knew what was going to happen, I just wasn't prepared for how fast it happened. In the morning Roscoe woke me up and wanted to go outside. I quickly got up and went outside with him. He had so much energy compared to the past couple of days. When I spoke to the doctor he said that it may have been the prednistone that gave him the energy. I asked him if with this energy would treatment be ok, however he told me that Roscoe would not be a good candidate for chemo or other treatment because he was too weak to be put through the effects of what these treatments would do to him. I spent the morning with him, took him for a walk in the field behind our home, a place where he loved to go, where a herd of deer spend most of the winter. The Deer were not there in the morning except for a big flock of geese after he passed on I noticed the herd back. Roscoe wanted to spend the day outside, we are currently experiencing a last blast of winter with wind and snow, but there was a time when the sun came out. He always loved to rest in the sun, so I spent most of the morning outside with him. I could not go to far with him as I had to wait for the telephone call from the doctor to advise when he would be coming. This was so hard knowing it would happen but not knowing when he would be coming. I just wanted more time with Roscoe, but I know that if I kept him alive he would just suffer more and the Roscoe I want to remember is my big handsome man. Today I am feeling guilty, he followed me around yesterday staying so close, I feel that I betrayed his love and loyalty. All of our family lives approx 1000 miles from us and we just moved to this area but in a way I just wanted to grieve by myself. My other dogs, when they go outside, I think they are looking for him. Roscoe, even though he was normally 90 lbs. would always sleep with me when my husband goes to camp, in the winter he is gone for 4-5 mos at a time. Last night my border collie came up on the bed and snuggled with me. He has always been my mama's boy. Next week Heavenly Trails Pet Crematorium will return Rosce in a hand made cedar box made by the Huderite colony with his name, birthdate and March 2005 engraved on it so that he can be with us always.