I think we all know just how "hard" it is........we just want you to be able to handle it. Sounds like you are trying very hard, and I'm proud of you for that. Please understand that we "oldies" are truly speaking from our own experiences, as Rachel said. Hope it helps a little.

Hang in there and know that we are "rooting" for you every step of the way and if we can help you, privately, in support of your efforts, let us know!!!

Logan