Thanks Vickie, I wish that I could say that I agree with you when it comes to my situation, but I can't.

My situation feels weird -- see, I always say my dad doesn't care about me. He never calls me, he never writes me. He lives in the same city as me and he never comes to visit me. I haven't been to his house for years. Back when he used to call me, he only did it because he was forced to. He's never payed child support. He was supposed to come get me so I could spend a Christmas weekend at his house just last Christmas. My bag was packed, and I was ready to go. And I waited....and waited...and waited. And he never came. He never called me, he never told me he wasn't coming. He just left me there. And it hurt so bad. And yet in my heart, I know he loves me.

On the other hand, there's my mother -- She pays for my clothes, she feeds me, etc; And yet I feel like she really doesn't care about me. She yells at me alot, she tells me she hates me, she calls me stupid. When I was younger I was smacked alot. She goes off at me for the dumbest reasons. And this is where alot of my frustration and anger comes from. I carry alot of psychological problems because of the things she's made me deal with.

But I'm looking up. I feel like one day maybe everything will be okay. I'm moving out this year...and I won't have to be near anymore pain, and she won't have to be near me, and we'll both be happy. I feel like maybe one day she will die and I'll regret not spending so much time with her. I'm a very passive-aggressive person and I can hold a grudge forever...So I don't know if we'll ever be on good terms. Atleast if we aren't fighting anymore, I can say that we had a good relationship.Ad for my dad, I'm not speaking to him anymore...but I heard from my grandma that he is going to help pay for my grad dress which is a big surprise for me, so maybe we'll be cool one day. Truth is, I really love my dad. I don't know why lol.

Sorry if I ruined the tone of the thread...My reply was going to be nice but then I started to vent a little bit and couldn't stop.