Im SO sorry.

I can't imagine how you feel. It's good that your not going, you shouldn't give him what he wants.

Not to change the subject or make you upset, but i saw a movie in health not too long ago, about a man who killed the daughter of a family (he was drunk, and slammed right into her). She was only 18 years old, and the parents told the court to make him write the parents a check, for the next 18 years of a dollar, to remind him of what he did. He eventually couldn't take it anymore, because the guilt was resting on him, every friday. It was either that or jail.

Again, im so very sorry for you.