Johanna, I am so sorry you had to go through this. A decision like this is never easy to make but you know in your heart of hearts what you did was best and right. Don't feel guilty! You gave more love, spent more money on trying to make things right for Binx than a lot of people do for their children. Everyone knows that are a special person for just taking Binx and trying to find a way to make his life "normal". We will never know why Binx was like this, why he came into your life but if we believe in God we know there is a reason -- and maybe the answer is within all that you gave us here at Pet Talk sharing Binx and his problems and yours with us. "Many people walk through our lives but few leave footprints in our hearts." You and Binx left footprints in many hearts. And do continue to come to Pet Talk Gatherings in Findlay. We would miss you terribly if you don't - and I could always lend you a dog - or two - to keep track of if need be.