Speaking as a nurse, who is often the one inflicting the pain on frightened "victims," I can tell you, you did a great job!! Most often it's the anticipation that is the worst...once it's over, you end up saying..."It wasn't THAT bad!" Still, I hope you were surrounded by kind and caring and sympathetic caregivers...I always think back on my owns fears when I'm faced with a frightened patient. I'll be thinking of you and hoping for an encouraging update! Alopecia, especially for a young woman is very disteressing but you're getting help, and that's the most important first step!! You get a BIG GOLD STAR from me, too! {{{HUGS}}}