omg! 3-g-a-a-m, that's exactly how i felt when i brought King into my life. after 18 years of Baron being gone, i felt like i was cheeting on him because of how much love i felt for king. 18 years and the pain has never left. but after a week i realized he would want nothing more then for me to be happy. i'm so used to Specks feeling ultimate jealousy. for severl weeks i still had feelings of guilt, but it finally faded away.

Staci, i defintly agree about the dog not being replaced. (though, a few people do that, but they don't love their dogs as much as all of us do in my oppinion.) i think a new dog is great for helping ease the pain. and no matter what, don't think you're obligated to forget about Shai. you shouldn't. i say that, because i know it's going to be suggested to you by someone.