Karen so many of us have walked down this road that you are now on and know exactly what you are feeling right now. Your sadness brings these raw feelings back to the surface and the emotion and the grief is horrible. There is no other way to describe it. I know with my dogs all I had to do was look in their eyes and I knew they were at the end of what they could bear. I did it for them, certainly not for me. I pray that God will give you the strength when it is time and Cody will show you. (((Hugs))) to you my special friend.