That wasn't an easy thing for you to do, leaving your dad. But you are NOT abandoning him, although I'm sure his facial expression and the look in his eyes made you feel as though you were. I think we've either all been there or we're close to someone who has been there and it's no easy road to travel, that's for sure. But when you said that the administrator took him under her wing, I'm sure you felt better, at least for a little anyhow. It'll take time for everyone to adjust and it will get better. Take care of yourself and rest that hand for a while. Let people wait on you. (Yeah, I know.)