Yes i know I have resigned myself to the fact that i am not having one of the kittens, I had made my mind up about that because i have to be practical, we cannot always have what we desire and good things come to those of us who wait, i have always believed that little saying and Karen you are right I will have my tortie girl when the time is right and she will be very special I know that, in the meantime i am blessed to have the two precious furbabies I have and they take top priority, poor kitties must have noticed not getting quite as much attention lately as I have been so busy with my other kitties.

Even though it has all been hard for me emotionally mostly, i feel a great deal of happiness in what has been achieved and it is extremely rewarding, one has to take the downfalls with the highs, even though it is hard to bear at times.

Finns mom I hope you are ok, feel free to Pm if you need a chat, I have noticed you have not been around as much, hope all is well with you.