Thanks Donna, I need people to put things in perspective for me sometimes, I am the biggest worry wart alive I think, and I ponder things over and over in my mind, believe me when all this is done I am going to go away somewhere, well thats after I have paid for Ash first of course.

Yes the timing is not right, and you are so wise in saying that maybe there is a good reason for that, my next kitty will come along when it is meant to, I mean there have been a lot of beautiful kitties in my life lately and I have managed to let them all go, for good reasons, and yes the time will come eventually.