I have no choice as I'm not brave enough for the alternative to not living each day.

I have no money and am working up a debt it will take the longest time to pay off just by going to college. My sister and my aunt are the only family I really have. My significant other is going back to Malawi in two years and staying for five years and I can't go. My cat is old and on the way to the grave soon. My dog would be fine living with my sisters. I have no money once again. I have no health or dental insurance so if I have pain I live with pain. I'm living in hell already so I figure when I die it will be good because I just got done serving time for nothing. I figure I live each day because I'm being punished for something I don't know.