Don’t apologize or be self deprecating. You are going through challenges and health issues that would be difficult and unpleasant for the best. I am wishing you love and healing with all my heart babe. Had to put my old cat down after 17 years a couple days ago. Knocked the snot outta me even though it was the right thing to do. Sometimes there is just no good or bad. Just what is. Bet that cheered ya up eh doll.. 🙀😳🩷🩷🩷. Doing my best as I am sure you are too dear. Miss my cat, 🙈🤬🤬 You relax Karen and treat yourself kindly. You are beautiful and deserve to be kind to yourself. I know a Paul would never want you to treat yourself with anything less than kindness, love and respect. Am I right. You know I am. Xoxo