Thank you all for your support.

Today I'm feeling completely worthless but I'm hoping that goes away. I need to find myself a home and soon, hopefully.

Don't get me wrong. I love my parents. I LOVE my parents. I love their home. But it's THEIR home, not mine. I grew up here, it was my home, but I never wanted to have to move back in with my parents and sleep on their couch. I just don't want to be a burden to them. I want out. I became accustomed to having a place to myself and I LOVED it. My things are all scattered amongst their home and the storage unit. I just want everything back together in life. I feel lost.


I have an 'appointment' tomorrow to check out a duplex that my brother's landlord has up for rent. He's willing to take the security deposit in payments and work with me. So, hopefully it's in a nice area and not a dump because I don't have any other ideas as to where to go and cannot afford much.


The part that has me most upset is the fact that I was struggling already and I had plans to get my crap together, figure out finances, getting my apartment cleaned up and more organized, etc. I had just begun this process a few days prior to the fire and was so proud of myself for doing so.


Some moments I look at this situation in a good way, a new journey... but today is just a downer. I haven't eaten today just because my nerves are a wreck and I have a terrible cold. Sorry, I'm just rambling now. Thank you all again for listening.