I still get smitten with longing and grief for my beloved Rainbow Bridge collies Cody and Willie. It is the worst with Will... because I had an intense bond with him that I had never experienced before. I think my bond is just as strong with all my dogs, but each bond is different, and Willie's was one that particularly reached me in my darker times.
It has been four years since Cody passed, and two years since Willie did, and still they are just as vividly in my dreams, my thoughts. So many times things Tasha or Tommy do will remind me of them. Worst of all some nights, the grief hits me again as though it has just happened. Sometimes it really frightens me to think of going through it again with Tommy and Tasha, but I try to just push those thoughts away.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not in a constant state of living in the past or dwelling on the future. It's just stronger sometimes, especially around Holidays or their birthdays (Cody's would be tomorrow).
Does it ever get easier? Will there ever be a time when I will be able to think of them without that pang of grief?
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