There is a ticket to Scotland waiting for me at LAX?
Yes, sir!
You cannot take the 'blood' out of your veins.
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My dearest sister said something to my brother-they are part of the opposing force-that made me laugh.
She confided to my brother that I would freak out and commit suicide.
My Dear Sis was so compassionate that she never came to the house to say goodbye to my mom for the two months she was at home.
As a matter of fact? I was with Ma up until the few hours before she died.
She was comatose and we had to wet her lips with a swab so her mouth would not dry out.
When she felt the pressure of the sponge she would try to suck the moisture out of it.
I felt an overwhelming sadness as I did so. I thought how she may have done the same thing for/to me as I was growing up. With a warm breast or a cool cup of water?
I spoke to her at that time and told her that I knew she was tired, she was in pain and it was O.K. for her to go.
Not that I am any giver of life or death, but I wanted the best for her.
No pain, no suffering and no sorrow.
That really released me from having to mourn for her.
I got to be there and I was able to talk to her for one last time.
I went to sleep to rest and a few hours later they woke me up to tell me that she had passed.
I felt not pain, but I small sense of relief and a smaller twinge of what would come to pass.
In the almost two years I have thought about her and her stubborness in not making a will or administrating to her estate?
But, we all want to live forever, so I see her point.
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I have wanted to run away from all this mess, but staying and putting the best foot forward is what I have to do.
I have 5 sibs an NOT ONE offered to be here today to see how this open house would go.
No one called, no one asked and one of my sibs is going to Disneyland today.
Really.
So,
My cochlea won't suffer any damage in the near future.
I'll need it to hear the complaints the will have down the road when they complain about the "way I screwed them out of the -------- they wanted from her house".
To be totally mean?
Eff them and the horse that carried their sorry arses into the arena.
I don't have to worry about riding in that rodeo.
I had to take the bull by the horns.![]()
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