A date? I'm going on a D-A-T-E?

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Probably not this week anymore. D-A-T-E-S are going to be hard to come by now that school is back in session, we both have jobs (the same job, actually...) and I have sports games to play at sometimes 2 nights a week with the band. We both hope we can get a D-A-T-E in sometime in the future.

[gemini9961]

Well keep us updated Megan.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Oh I will. I actually have some cute things he said to me last night, lmao.

Him: do u have a pic u could send me or the ones on your myspace the onlys ones
Me: ummm... i can look
Him: ok
Me: what for?
Him: my wallet

Him: youre worth more then money can buy remember that

Him: i am not looking forward to work tom
Him: cause when i see u i get the urge to run up and kiss ya

[gemini9961]

How cute.

[animal_rescue]

Aww he seems so sweet!

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Yeah, we go to rival schools and both work so it looks like weekends are our only bet.

On the plus side, I've lost 6 or 7 lbs.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

And now I'm crying.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Gosh. I don't know what's going on but I was bawling a few minutes ago and I'll probably start to cry again while I'm typing this.

Remember all those cute things he said and I posted them before? Well he's cute and stuff online and tells me he wants to kiss me, tells me that he wants to leave here when he's old enough and take me with so we can just drive till we run out of gas, he tells me I'm worth more than money can buy.

But one pretty girl walks by at work and SNAP, "Damn she's hot."

We aren't even DATING, but I hate it when he says stuff like that. It makes me feel so inferior and unimportant. I'm being stupid and selfish but it hurt my feelings really bad. I feel so ugly when he says it. I feel like he thought I was pretty at one point, but something new has come around and I'm being kicked to the curb.

[gemini9961]

Don't worry Megan. He's a guy and guys do that crappy stuff. Do it to him next time a hot guy walks by.

[mina'smomma]

But one pretty girl walks by at work and SNAP, "Damn she's hot."

Don't worry about that hun. He is like every red blooded teenage boy, and they have to look. If it bothers you that much do the same back to him with a hot guy. My husband and I have were dating for two years before we got married and we've been married just over five months and he still looks and makes comments about other women. Just remember you're the one he dotes on. You're his special gal because you have the personality to go with those good looks.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Okay, so we talked.

I'll just paste the convo cuz it's SO much easier that way, lol.

Me: i have a question, kay?
Him: k
Him: ..?
Me: where exactly do we stand? ugh, i don't know, but like when we're online we sit and talk about when to kiss and stuff and then at work and stuff its just like we're good friends, i don't really know where im going with this
Him: idk ether i mean i want to but its hard to do anything at work
Me: its hard at work
Him: i am srry i dont mean to do anything mean to ya
Him: i want to go farther but it is hard when im nervous
Me: lol im nervous too
Me: im just making sure we have something before i get to hopeful
Him: i think we do i just want to give it time
Me: good, i do too, i just wasnt sure lol
Him: ya
Him: idk i really want to kiss and stuff i dont know even tho were frienbds i dont see a prob with it i could almost help thinks idk i am gonna shut up
Him: nvm....
Me: no im thinking of what im trying to say
Him: ok
Me: i dont mind kissing and hugging and hand holding or what not, i just dont want it to be a friends with benefits type thing, ya know?
Him: yeah, i agree
Me: im really glad we got this stuff figured out lol i was really nervous that you hated me or something
Him: no never
Me: and then u kept talking about the hot chick in the video and i was like ahhh he does hate me
Him: no
Him: sorry
Me: but its okay now lol
Him: lol
Him: ok
Me: i was lost for a little while
Him: well i am sorry

All in all, I'm still nervous about it ending up to be a friends-with-benefits situation. I'll just have to see what happens.

[CagneyDog]

Aw He sounds so cute. I'm glad you got that worked out.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Weee... I'm talking on the phone to himmm. Happy times. He called ME! Weee... I love it.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

It's done. I'm done. I can't take it nor help it.

He checks out other girls, tells me how hot they are. He invites another girl to the Christmas party, went to Junior Girls with someone, had a blast, and is practically in love with her. I don't want him anymore. I don't want anything. Except to be happy.

So much stress right now. My band teacher might get fired due to "sexual harrassment". My friend is suicidal and there was some HUGE drama yesterday which involved everyone in tears and one person mad at all of us. Now Mike, I can't take things anymore.

What my friend said:

i really think that he's too immature for you. i really do. and he's nice in person and everything..but he's completley different behind your back. and i dont know, you dont have to take that crap. theres a quote in The Perks of Being a Wallflower and its "You settle for the love you think you deserve"..and you deserve better megan. honestly. he doesnt understand a real relationship..and i really think that he's being so immature about this. i know its hard because he says he says he likes you and stuff..but you know--if he's doing this stuff, you've gotta stop it before you like him anymore and get even more hurt. i mean...do you really wanna be in a relationship with a guy that is constantly checking out girls? and hanging out with other girls?? no. and plus, i know exactly how it feels to like someone JUST because they like you...JESSE. thats the only reason i liked him so much..cuz he liked me. but i mean...god. its just a bunch of crap that he's doing that stuff. and its gonna be hard to get over him, but i think its something that you need to do.

[gemini9961]

Megan, as hard it may seem to do and listen to but your friend is right. You do deserve better and don't let this one jerk ruin it for you. You are young and it will get better. ((((Hugs)))))