Kinda nervous about tomorrow

[catnapper]

Believe it or not, my husband understands EXACTLY how you feel. He's out on extended disability.... "post traumatic stress disorder" thanks to Pennsylvania's public school system.

[jennielynn1970]

5am here, and still not feeling well.

Disability. I don't know that I'd qualify for that. I don't want to take off the rest of the year, because then I can't ever take a sabbatical ever again. I'd like to leave that option open. Just in case. Doesn't help I don't feel good to begin with along with tension and anxiety. My ambien isn't doing crap, so I have to call the doc about that today and see if I can get some Lunesta to knock me out, lol. I haven't slept in days. I'm just emotionally and physically exhausted.

Keep me in your thoughts, please. I can definitely use those cyber hugs. You guys are as close to family as I have here.

[beeniesmom]

5am here, and still not feeling well.

Disability. I don't know that I'd qualify for that. I don't want to take off the rest of the year, because then I can't ever take a sabbatical ever again. I'd like to leave that option open. Just in case. Doesn't help I don't feel good to begin with along with tension and anxiety. My ambien isn't doing crap, so I have to call the doc about that today and see if I can get some Lunesta to knock me out, lol. I haven't slept in days. I'm just emotionally and physically exhausted.

Keep me in your thoughts, please. I can definitely use those cyber hugs. You guys are as close to family as I have here.

I'm sorry. You do need to talk to your doctor again and see if he can give you something different. I hope you do better today. I know it's out of your control. Hugs

[Taz_Zoee]

Hey Jennie, I am so sorry about this. This is not happy. I hope the doctor can give you something to help you through this.

{{{Big Hugs}}}

[krazyaboutkatz]

Jenn, I'm sorry to hear this. I hope that your doctor can prescribe something that will help you. Please take care. (((HUGS)))

[emily_the_spoiled]

I am sorry that you are having such a difficult time with this. I know that it is not the same as having someone in the house to send you off in the morning, but remember that we are all pulling for you and you are NOT alone

{{{{Hugs}}}}

[Karen]

Okay, sending you a strong, bracing face-the-world Peterson family hug.


(If you've ever met one of us in person, you *know* when you've been hugged by a Peterson (my maiden name).

[Daisy and Delilah]

Sending more:

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Take care Jennie.

[Catlady711]

Sorry to hear you had a panic attack, aren't sleeping and meds aren't working.

I've had panic attacks at times myself, even when your head says you're fine, everything else says 'run away'. It's a pain to deal with even with meds for it.

I hope things settle down for you and maybe your dr will give you something so you can get some much needed rest.

HUGS

[K9karen]

Jen, so did you finally get to school yesterday? Did you call the doc for a new script? How are you now? Add me to the hug list.

[jennielynn1970]

I called in for a script for Lunesta. That is some weird stuff. I felt like I was asleep in a way, but I was awake, and yet, I couldn't make myself move. It was really freaky. I kept thinking of that old film "The Serpent and the Rainbow", where they have that sleeping dust stuff, and they're unable to move or speak or whatever, lol. That's what it felt like. I'm gonna give the Ambien another shot. Maybe I just need to be overly tired for it to work again.


SO, it's 5:15am, and I've been awake since 3:15am. I made breakfast, apple pancakes. Took a shower, exfoliated my face with a new face scrub, used a new shampoo and conditioner that is supposed to be invigorating, lol, and even had some nice, new, fresh and fluffy towels ready and waiting for me.

Now I just need to do some makeup, get dressed in work clothes and get there early. The building opens at 6am, so I think I'll get there about 6:30am and allow myself that extra time to just relax and get ready for the day. Maybe I'll stop at Panera Bread and get a house latte while I'm out early, I dunno. I want a hot cocoa with a shot of espresso... that used to totally hit the spot, but the Moravian Book Shop isn't open this early. Guess I'll have to hit Thursdays and have a virtual one!

I think I'm ready for today. Closing eyes and breathing deep!

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Good luck, Jenn. You'll be fine. =]

Lots of love and support from me and my frozen furkids in Wisconsin...

[Cataholic]

I hope you make it today! In case you don't, maybe you could do a 'dry run'? Go to work after the busy hours? Maybe just tour the place, and see a few people, get some of the newness out of the way?

[caseysmom]

Your in my thoughts today.

[Taz_Zoee]

Come on Jennie! You can do it!! I will use my mind powers to help you through the day.
Well, it's 10:30 there now, so hopefully you are at work and getting back into the groove of things.