In honor of my best friend... *pics* Update: Post 24

[CouturePup]

Kfmar,
I am so sorry. Mia is beautiful. I lost too lost a friend from cardiac arrest, hers was a result of an eating disorder.

[Kfamr]

Kfmar,
I am so sorry. Mia is beautiful. I lost too lost a friend from cardiac arrest, hers was a result of an eating disorder.

That's the same case with Nicole. Between that, just having a baby, and the stress her goodfornothing boyfriend put on her.


Mia really is a miracle baby. Besides being born 4.9ounces, completely healthy, Nicole was never even supposed to be able to get pregnant because of the issues she had, but somehow, she did.

[mina'smomma]

Such a beautiful way to remember her. I'm very sorry for the lose of your friend and Mia's mother

[cyber-sibes]

It's beautiful Kay, it all goes together so well.
Don't delete her number at all if you don't feel like it. I still have a tape from my old phone answering machine with the last two messages my mother left me, & she's been gone for over 15 years now.

[anna_66]

I love it Kay. Beautiful way to keep them both with you at all times.
(((HUGS)))

[4 Dog Mother]

Kay that is a great tribute to your friend and her daughter. It is quite beautiful and I am not really into tattoos.

I don't know what to say to you about the rest. I miss Rob every day and you are right sometimes it seems even harder than it was in the beginning. I sometimes think maybe I will call him and get his perspective on something or just to talk to him but then realize I can't. The only think I can say is that if it didn't hurt, we didn't love them or didn't know them (meaning they were not in our lives) and that would be a terrible thing too. Hang in there - feel free to call if you need to - we can cry together. You will always have a part of Nicole through Mia. And while she will never replace Nicole, she will always be a reminder of what a special person Nicole was in your life.

I will be thinking of you and praying for you as well as Mia and her family.

[cloverfdx]

Kay you are often in my thoughts {{hugs}}. What a beautiful addition to your Tattoo, what a lovely tribute.

[Kfamr]

Yesterday I spent around 4 hours with your beautiful baby and I love her so much. She looks so much like you Nicole. The way she smiles, the faces she makes, her hair. Everything. She's just as beautiful as you were. She's smiling more and more everyday. I remember when you said you were so scared about her starting to cry real tears, so am I.

I know how happy it makes you too, the love we shared for Mia was amazing. I've hated kids my whole life until I met your beautiful child, from the second she was born. I love her even more now because she's all I have of you.

I can't even explain the way it makes me feel not to have you here. I have great friends but no one will could ever be friends like we were. The girl that would be here within minutes if I need her. The girl that I would spend 43423424 hours in Wal-Mart, Target, or even f-ng Race Trac.

We were goofy as$es who found humor in the stupidest places. We were always laughing together. We thought the same things at the same times and I know there's plenty of times where I told you to get out of my head.

We shared some of the most incredibly moments together and I'll never forget them. I wish there was a way to let you know how really grateful I am for being able to do so.

It's a sad day when you can relate to a Master P song, but seriously dude...
"I keep my memories, try to keep my head strong
But baby it's hard to be strong, when yo main homie gone"

"Even though you gone away
(Even though you gone, you ain't never gon be forgotten)
I know you in a better place
(Cause as long as I'm here
You gon live through me and other TRU playas)
I really miss my homies
Even though they gone away
I know you in a better place
And I hope to see ya soon someday"

"I pray for you, I'm glad you in a better place
I hope I see ya soon, ain't no more killin
Ain't no more fights, and ain't no more tears"


Nicole, it is amazing how many people you have effected with your leaving. I really hope you know how truly you were loved, your family and friends. Even people that didn't know you are reaching out to embrace your beautiful daughter. She has so much love, so many people around, and I am so happy for that.


Nicole, I'm not a religious person, you know that. I never have been. I pray everyday. I don't know who I am talking to. I don't know who is listening, but I do it anyways. I pray for you Nicole. I pray for Mia. I hope you hear me.

I also hope you hear all of the ridiculous sh;t Stephanie and I say. We're constantly saying "dude, Nicole would have cracked up over that" or "Nicole would have loved that."


Honestly, how could it be, somebody took my boy from me. My best friend's gone and I'm so alllllllllll alone. I really missssss my homiessssss, evne though you've gone away I know you're in a better place.

[.sarah]

I think of you every day, hoping you're doing okay. Mia is going to be so happy to have you in her life when she gets older. You will be able to tell her things about her mom that only a best friend would know. It's awesome that you are able to see her so much.

[wolf_Q]

I can't even imagine the pain you are going through. I know that she meant so much to you. That is a beautiful tribute to a great friend. If you ever need to talk, let me know. {{HUGS}}