Update on Puddy; she's gone*9/29* see post #421

[Medusa]

I can't say any more right now. I'm too sick w/grief.

[gini]

Oh, how my heart goes out to you. I just feel that Puddy will always be close to you. She knew how hard you tried and how much love you have for her. She will stay close to fill your heart with love and try to ease your grief.

These times are like no other and I wish that I could say just the right thing to ease your pain.

I am so very sorry.

[pomtzu]

OMG Mary - I'm sitting here just sobbing. Nothing I can say will ease your pain, but please know that you and Puddy are in my prayers.

[momtomany]

Mary I know everyone is in shock. Know that we all are here for you and praying. I am so sorry.

[GILL]

I am so sorry, we try and try but some times there are other plans for our babies.

[jennielynn1970]

Oh god, Mary, I am so sorry to be reading this. I wish I knew what to say to make you feel better.

Sweet Puddy girl, rest now, and watch over your meowmy, know that she is in terrible shock and grief. Know that you are now well, and whole, and that all of us on Pet Talk will be thinking of you and your family tonight and wishing you all peace.

Godspeed to the Bridge, dear sweet girl.

((((HUGS))))) to you Mary.

[shais_mom]

I'm so sorry for your Loss Mary.
(hugs)

[Kirsten]

What????

OMG, Mary, I'm really shocked!!!! Things just looked so good for her, now reading this was the last thing I expected!!

I'm really really sorry, it must hurt so much, especially after you just started to hope that there's a turn for the better.

I'm so very sorry about your loss!

(((HUGS)))

R.I.P. little Puddy, you have touched many hearts here. Now be young and whole at the Bridge again.

Kirsten

[kittykatharine]

Mary,

I am so very sorry for your loss. I have been following this thread for a very long time, and I was so shocked to see she crossed the bridge. Please know that you were the best mom any kitty could ever ask for and Puddy knew you loved her with all of your heart. This is the saddest thing I have heard in so long. I am so so so sorry. Please if you need to talk to someone, do not hesitate to send me a PM. I am sending you a great big HUG through the computer screen. Puddy will be missed a great deal.

[Grace]

I am so very sorry. {{{{{Mary}}}}}

[carole]

Dearest Mary, my heart goes out to you, just know puddy is now at peace and it was her time to go, i often read that sometimes they appear to become really better and then go, i have no idea why, you were a great meowmie,you gave her the best life possibly could, and i know you are grieving right now,but in time you will see that it was just Puddy's time.

A big giant gentle hug to you right now,i wish there was something i could say that would help to comfort you,but i know your'e heart is sad right now, just know we are all thinking of you at this very sad time in your life.

[Medusa]

I had to go to Dr. Lee's to pick up Puddy's Epogen syringes and Dr. Butera's to pick up her B vitamins, so I was going to go to Dr. Lee's first but something told me to do it the other way around. I went to Dr. B's and brought the B vitamins home and checked on Puddy and she was in her carrier curled up, looking cozy. When I touched her, she meowed but it was forced and I could tell that she was struggling to breathe. I didn't want to take her to Dr. B's because when I went into that office today, they were packed and there was the usual confusion and so I called Dr. Lee's office and said "Alert him that I'm on my way". Puddy never made a sound during the entire drive there. They took us right in as soon as we got there.

Dr. Lee came back into the room and said "I want to do a chest x-ray" and I gave my permission, of course. He came back a few minutes later and said "I gave her a shot to help her breathe more easily and to kill the pain. Her lungs are filled w/fluid. You have two options: I can drain her lungs or you can ease her pain." I said "Ease her pain?" and he said "Put her to sleep". I asked "If you drain her lungs..." and he interrupted me and said "I don't even know if she'll make it." I said "And if she does?" He said "There's no guarantee that it won't happen again right away". So I said "No. She's been through enough. Let's end this, Dr. Lee". Then I said "I need to be w/her and hold her while you do it" and he said "Ok". He brought her to me and I held her. She tried to stand up, she took one last breath as though she was trying to grab onto air; she let out a cry and then she got still. I said "I think she's gone, Dr. Lee". Apparently, the shot that he gave her took her; he didn't even have to start the IV.

He said "I'm sorry, Mary. Puddy was a fighter right up to the very last breath. She was amazing." I asked him how this could happen; she had been doing so well the last couple of days and I told him "You know I would've said something when I talked to you this morning if she had shown any signs of not being able to breathe". He said "Because she's been lying around so much, it was easy for the fluid to accumulate in her lungs. It happens to humans, too. It didn't just happen. It's obviously been accumulating and she just now showed signs of it". I asked if I killed her w/giving her too many subQ's and he said "Nooooo! It's because of your good care of her that she lived as long as she did. No, Mary, Puddy had one challenge after another. She just said 'That's it. I can't take any more'".

He showed me her x-rays and her lungs were completely filled w/fluid and she had fluid around her heart, too. He said that she gasped so hard for air and fought so hard for life that her intestines were filled w/air and he showed it to me on the x-ray. He said "She fought to the very last second. That was Puddy". He gave me a hug a couple of times and said "Please be careful driving home". I could tell that he just did not know what else to say.

So I came home and dug her grave before it got dark. By the time I was done I was pretty sore, even from last week's fall, so I thought I'd take a hot bath. Of course, as soon as I went upstairs, I saw the bowl of water in the tub and that got me started again. You'd think I'd run out of tears by now. I'll write her tribute later. I just can't do it right now. The sun is setting and the night has never been my friend anyhow. How will I sleep w/out listening for that 'tap tap tap' on the hardwood floor?

[jenluckenbach]

{{{{HUGS}}}}

What more can I say???

But I can cry with you, as hard as if she were my very own. She didn't want YOU to have to suffer the pain of this decision. She was quite a girl.

Puddy, try not to give the Big Vet in the sky too much CAT-itude. OK?

Many people will be missing you, tonight.

[Catlady711]

I am so sorry to hear about Puddy. You really did everything you could for her and much more than many pet owners out there would have. You have no reason to think otherwise. My thoughts are with you.

[rosethecopycat]

So sorry to hear that Puddy had to leave your side.
When things are quiet, you will hear her 'tap tap tap' in your mind and know she's there. Until you meet again, One Fine Day.

Godspeed, Puddy.