Please make me feel better...

[NoahsMommy]

Thank you, really. I'm in tears, but not because I'm sad or hurt.

I am avoiding my mom until I can calm down. This isn't an isolated incident, but I know that I need to forgive her.

I've decided to drop my History class, and will be sticking with my Statistics class that is 5 units. I can handle that, and will have two hours a day of time for myself before I have to get to work.

I also have an appointment to see a new psychologist starting next week. I feel as though I need to be talking to someone so that I can minimize my stress level.

I'm off to take a bath and read something non-school related.

Thanks again for your kind words. I'll keep them for times when I feel down.

Love,
Kelly

[shais_mom]

I am so sorry you have been so stressed out and in pain and your mom not supporting you. I hope you start feeling better asap. Take care of yourself, let the furbies crawl all over you and maybe they can help!! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

[catnapper]

Oh I am sooo sorry! Sometimes moms get stressed too and say what are the sharpest, meanest words around that cut you seep into your soul.

I can understand to a degree what you feel... I know nothing of your disease, but I suffer chronic migraines. Enough that at least one day a week, I am flat on my back with an ice pack and some serious drugs flowing through me. If I go three or more days without it breaking, I go to the hospital and get a shot of Demorall (yep, the stuff they give pregnant ladies to deal with the pain) So, yes, I understand the pain and not being able to control it. Mine too is brought on by stress... and other things. I had a job that I loved, but the stress just about killed me (anybody thinking of becoming an interior designer can PM me and I'll tell you the realities of being one! ) Anyhow, I left my job to start my own busines - a lifelong dream - so that I can suffer my migraines without worrying about annoying my boss and coworkers. I am so excited to do this, but its harder than it might seem. If I have a truly depressing day, my husband will lift me up, but as you say, sometimes mom is the one who does it best. So I cry to mom how hard it is and she suggests to get out and look for a "real" job. grrrr.

Only you know your potential. the great thing about potential is that only you can live up to it... most often we exceed our own expectations when it comes to realizing our dreams! Ignore mom... she's just scared that you're putting yourself through so much stress that you'll end up hurting yourself in the long run... but she doesn't know how much giving up on the dream would kill you even more! Better to go through this young than middle-aged with three kids, two car loans, and a mortgage! Talk about stress!

So smile, know that you are THIS much closer to finishing school - - even if it takes another five years to get your bachelors - who cares? As long as you are doing it!

PS: Statistics? OMG! I was sooo bad in that class that I confused my tutor!

[Karen]

You are gifted in that you know what you want to do with your life. Many people don't have a clue, and founder through life, going from one unhappiness to another.

You have been given the gift of knowing what you want, and knowing the path to get there.

We love you, and will be there for you.

I am sure your mom loves you, but doesn't know the strength of your conviction. That's okay, parents seem often to be the last to realize their children are adults. As she would have sheilded you from bad places when you were a child, so she seems to be tryiong to sheild you now, without realizing how much it hurts you.

You will get your degree in your own time, and learn more than many in the process.

Hang in there, kiddo! Statisticks? Bleaaaa - but I went to Art School, so we never had anything like that!

[Tubby & Peanut's Mom]

Originally posted by NoahsMommy
HUGE mistake. My mom basically told me to consider another career. That she doesn't think I can handle being a Psychologist and that I can't handle basically anything. I normally would have taken that attitude and used it to give me a stronger drive to not only earn my PhD, but to prove her wrong.

The only problem I see is your statement above that you will get your PhD to prover your mother wrong. That is the absolute worst reason to earn it. You have to want it for you, not for anybody else or for what anybody else thinks of you. I think you do want that, but you might have to do some soul searching and make absolutely sure that that's the reason you're going for it.

I'm glad to hear you've dropped one of the classes. When I started my online classes, I quickly found out that I had taken on too much and ended up dropping one also. There's no shame in that, and this way you'll do better in the class you're still taking.

When you set out your plan for college, you didn't plan on having this disease, so you might just have to readjust them a little. So it takes you a little longer to earn the degree - so what? At least you'll still be alive and healthy when you finally do earn it rather than be a total basket case in the mean time.

Also, there's no shame in changing plans. I know you were planning on going to a much higher profile school (Berkley was it?) and after a lot of soul searching and praying you decided against that, so like I said above, there's no shame in changing plans. You don't have to prove anything to anybody, you just have to make sure that you are happy and healthy.

I know you can do it, you might just need to take it a little slower than you thought, and there's no shame in that either.

Good luck!

[HoRsELUvR]

Im so sorry that you're having such a hard time.Dont stop trying to get your diploma if that's what you really want,no matter how many obstacles you have to face.

[NoahsMommy]

Awww...thanks guys.

I spoke with my mom last night and I can tell she feels bad. We didn't really talk about it, other than her asking how school, work and my health is going. I think she knows what she said hurt me a lot.

Anyway, thanks so much for the encouragement. I need it!