My Phoebe had passed away...

[Rhonda]

Rhonda, I definitely can understand how you feel about Phoebe's last moments b/c I experienced the same thing w/my cat Boo. He was 18 1/2 when I had him PTS just before Thanksgiving. He was such a luvvie, laid back, cool cat but he hated being fussed with. He loved to cuddle and snuggle but getting groomed, giving meds, etc., no way if he could help it. When my vet administered the shot to help Boo relax, Boo cried out very loudly b/c the shot stung and Boo was so bony b/c he had bladder cancer; he was barely 7 lbs. and at one time he was a big, strapping alpha male black cat. I, too, think of his eyes and the sound he made and wish that I could have spared him that pain and I'm so sorry that I caused it but he would've gone through more pain for a long time if I hadn't had him PTS. So I look at what I did as an act of kindness and I know that my Boo forgives me. It's getting easier as the days go by, too. Please know that we all here feel for you. RIP, sweet Phoebe and peace to your mom.

Btw, when you're ready, you'll have love to give to another kitty some day and you'll see Phoebe's love for you in that kitty's eyes. No one can ever replace Phoebe but her love lives on.

Thank you so much for sharing your story with me and I know you do really know how I'm feeling at the moment. That's the one thing I can't stop thinking about is that Phoebe won't forgive for what I did.
It is so heart-warming to know so many people care about what happened to both Phoebe and me. Thank you again Medusa.

[Rhonda]

I am so sorry for your loss. Phoebe was a beautiful girl. I know how difficult it is to make the decision to let them go. And your story brought on the tears. When I let my Taz go he let out a sigh after the injection, almost like he welcomed it. But your Phoebe's reaction is heartbreaking.
Please know you did what was right. I know it doesn't seem like it right now. It took me a long time to realize it. At times I still question my decision, but then I think about how sick he was and what kind of life he was living.

Hugs to you Rhonda and RIP Phoebe.

Dear Taz Zoee, just wanted to acknowledge and to thank you for kind words it is so heart warming that there are people like you out there who really do understand. Again thank you so much.
Bye from Phoebe's Mum (Rhonda).