Thanks for all the prayers and good thoughts but unfortunately they didn't help little Tubby. He is going to be euthanized today at 5:00 pm. His abdomen is so full and I'm afraid his lungs will fill with fluid and he will drown if I don't do something soon. He is one of our precious little bottle babies that has brought so much joy into our home in such a short amount of time.
I really don't think I can endure anymore. My heart is litterally in pieces and I don't even feel like I can breathe right now. I set out to do good things for the animals and it seems all I'm doing is killing them. Why is this happening to me? Why am I losing so many? I am one to believe that there is a reason for everything and that God won't give you more than you can handle but I'm beginning to question that for the first time ever.
Another downer post from me. It seems like thats all there ever is anymore.

I'm going to go spend my last few hours with him so that he will leave this world knowing only love. I'm still trying to get through my grief for my Pete Monster, Lucky, Scooter and Gazer.

God I'm going to miss this silly little boy!




Please pray that this will end for their sakes as well as mine. There really is only so much a person can handle and I am at my absolute limit.