Three steps forward, two steps back...

[moosmom]

Just when I thought I was getting everything in order, yet ANOTHER bombshell was dropped.

I was talking to my *ahem* best friend, Suzie on the phone last night about my impending move. She proceeds to tell me that "30 days is sufficient enough to find an apartment". After speaking with my children, they aren't very happy that you and your cats will be staying in their room." Um, Hellllooooooooo!!! Your children don't live with you anymore. "Yes, but it's still THEIR room. Oh, and the closets are full." Not that I was planning on staying there for any long period of time, mind you. And finding an apartment isn't the problem. It's finding a job to PAY the rent for the apartment. My daughter is as surprized as I am, considering she told her that I'd be staying for a couple of months.

I'm hurt and angry that she just didn't come out and tell me she doesn't want me there. We've been friends forever and have always been able to level with each other.

So, I cried buckets last night (I seem to do that alot lately) and then went online to look for apartments (still don't know how I'm going to pay rent). I found a couple that are pretty cheap (not in the greatest area, but it beats living out of my car) and will let me bring my cats.

I am wiped out emotionally right now. I have an appointment with Social Security on Thursday at 9 a.m. to file for Social Security Disability. Keep your fingers and paws crossed.

[Catty1]

You're right - why didn't she just say no to begin with??? ARRGH!

I think she owes you an apology, if she wants this friendship.

I wish youall the luck at SS on Thursday - and hey, they may have a housing registry as well.

You aren't meant to be at Suzie's - which now sounds like it could really damage the friendship.

Our HP has some wacky ideas in store sometimes...and might just have a wonderful surprise for you!

HUGS!

[moosmom]

Catty1,

For the first time in YEARS I wanted to drink. But I just kept saying the Serenity Prayer, took my medicine and went to bed. It passed.

I sent her an email this morning. Here's what I said:

Sue, all you had to do was level with me and tell me you really didn't want me staying with you instead of beating around the bush, using the girls and every other excuse you could come up with (the closets are full???). I thought best friends could be honest with each other. I guess I was wrong.

If she calls me, I'm not answering. I need time right now and I think if I talk to her, it'll only make things worse.

I just don't know how much more I can take.

[Queen of Poop]

Donna, I am so sorry this light at the end of the tunnel has been extinguished. But fear not, where one thing goes astray, another usually comes along right away. Glad you did not take the drink, but your meds and bed time instead. I send you a big hug and a ton of prayers that you find a place and get the assistance you need.

[krazyaboutkatz]

Donna, I'm sorry to hear this and I hope that everything will work out for you. Lots of prayers and positive thoughts are being sent your way.

[catnapper]

Donna, I am so hurt for you! I wish I had the space to let you come here. Heck, I'd love to do a bartering thing with you -- you live here in exchange for taking care of Cam during the day (Hey, did that get a smile outta you?)

I'm keeping my fingers and toes crossed things turn out well with your meetings and you find a new appartment. Shucks, I miss all your exciting threads about your crack ho neighbor, so maybe you'll get a new one! LOL -- now I hope that got a smile out of ya!

((((HUGS)))))