for being the coolest step-mom in the history of step-parenting.

We went to the OB-Gyn this morning and the nurses all rushed out to talk to me and they just gushed (yes gushed) about how wonderful I'm being and how supportive. I must admit it made me feel special and gave me a lump in my throat.

But really, what is so special about me being accepting and supportive? Wouldn't - SHOULDN'T - a parent do that for their child regardless the "mistake" they might make? Don't you love your child regardless bad choices? It makes me wonder! I know my parents would have done the same for me if I found myself in the same situation.

As for me... I am only doing what feels natural. You protect the younger ones as best you can and help them learn from their mistakes. I am being "led" by my mom who is beyond excited about all this baby stuff and is praying for the baby grand daughter my brother has yet to give her My brother and his wife are being just so awesome to us. I always thought we had troubles getting along with my brother and his wife and we're seeing a whole new side of them.

I think this baby is gluing everyone together. I think he/she is a huge blessing..... so how on Earth could I be cold hearted and make her life difficult in a time when she's scared out of her mind? How could I be mean when there's an innocent child on the way? How could I resent the baby thats actually bringing together a ton of people who otherwise saw tension with each other?

Sigh... just had to say that. I don't really deserve an award. just being me and following what feels right. This baby is all the award this family needs.
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