Judy,

I completely understand where you’re coming from. I lost my Dad a year ago in September. That first anniversary of his death nearly killed me. Honestly, I thought I wasn’t going to make it through it. The month before and for about a month after I was a basket case. I walked through life in an extreme state of depression. A lot of people didn’t understand, because they didn’t understand the relationship that Dad and I had.

I can tell you that all those “firsts” are HORRIBLE, but it does get easier. I have a huge amount of guilt that I’m dealing with for some things that happened surrounding his death. A lot of “should haves” that I know I need to get past, but I’m still having a hard time with that.

I’m just a PM away if you EVER need to talk.

{{{{{Hugs}}}}}