Confused, Depressed, Sorrowful

[kimlovescats]

Thank you for your input, Micki and Dev!

[Fox-Gal]

I was raised in a strong religions family all my life. I remember a time, my grandmother found out we missed church one day. She chased my brother and I around with a broom, calling us sinner's.
I though, how wrong that was, Does it matter that much to God that we missed one Sunday as long as our hearts are with him.

As I got older, for reason I wont get into, I walked away from the church, but never God. I have come to believe that if your heart is true, kind and loving that's all that God truly ask out of anyone. If I worship him in the house of the lord or in my back yard, the only thing that matters is that I do.

We all have sinned at one point or another, it is what makes us human. I have cussed God for taking so many loved ones away from me, but in the same breath thanked him for bringing them into my life. I believe he understands and forgives me, for he made us human, faults and all.

I believe that the only question that matters is "DO WE BELIEVE?" As long as that answer is yes, we are OK in the eyes of God.

He is loving, forgiving, and compassionate. He would never inflict harm or malice or pain on another of His children. When we bring up any sort of touchy subject, someone always ends up a victim, and leaves wounded and suffering. I hurt today for dear Laura, and any others who may have different lifestyles than the so-called "norm".

I read this one statement of yours and I thought, that makes you a christian. Just the fact that you hurt for those that got hurt. Leave out the fact that you might have caused some hurt, your only human. we all have hurt someone with our words/ideas/belifes at some time. But that you feel for thier hurt, says so much about you. You are a good person, we all see it and God sees it.

[Kfamr]

I've tried to believe and follow a religion so many times. I've tried to make sense of the bible, to make sense of what they said in Church and Youth Group... but couldn't.

I've decided that for now, although I'm young and it could possibly change (?) that i'm not going to try and make sense out of religions, or have my beliefs based around a religion. But to form my own beliefs on what I witness in today's world... and maybe one day a religion will "find" me.

I find it interesting to learn about other religions and beliefs, ask questions, and so forth to see if *maybe* that's the one for me.

Ask Amy, her mother and I bored her by talking about their religion.


Kim, I hope you don't mind me posting in this thread. If you do, just ask me to delete my post and I will.

[kimlovescats]

Again, thank you for the kind and loving words ... and for sharing your most sincere feelings. Kay, I don't mind that you posted, but I just don't want this thread to take on a whole new life of its own. I thank you all for caring enough to respond and offer your sincerity .... but I hope that this thread will soon fade away! I feel somewhat better having gotten my feelings off of my chest, but I will always regret having hurt ones that did not deserve to be.

Most appreciatively,
Kim

[CathyBogart]

I may not share your beliefs...but I can tell you that what it most important is what is in your heart. My uncle...a very conservative Christian...has never forgiven me for being a witch....it's hard for me to understand because I still love him as I always have. Our relationship is strained though, because he is forever lecturing me and giving me books to read to "help" me find "my" way.

How is a person supposed to find their OWN way by means of another person? Your father's behavior appalls me, and I hope he finds it in his heart to show the people he loves how he feels, even if he feels they are condemned because of the life THEY CHOSE to lead. *hug*

Sorry to continue a thread you want to fade away.