Debbie I don't know where this physco thing came from but you are certainly not!!! You have explained depression many times to others in need of help so you need to remember all that you have told them. Depression is a disease not a choice. Obviously this is a really bad time for you right now but you know you will eventually come out of it. It doesn't feel that way now but you will feel better. If you feel the need then you should go to the hospital but if you need to unload and tell how you are feeling or what is going on right now then do it. We are here for you and many times you have told me that sometimes writing it out helps a little. If you need to call me or want me to call you then let me know.
You are very much loved and cared for by many and don't you forget that!!!

Please take care Debbie and let us know if there is anything we can do for you.