Thank you everyone for your kind words. It helped me and tonight went a lot better than I expected. I think it helped that it was in my own house as I could escape if I felt bad, and I had Heidi to focus on too. That helps a lot because I am focusing on her and playing with her and everything and not on how people are treating me. I think one of the reasons that I was apprehensive was because the past few years the Christmas Eves have been rather tense and I felt just really stupid and everything, and I suppose I almost expected it to be that way for this one too. But it went well. I got a GSP calander, some warm fuzzy gloves, $10, bath bubbles, a sweater, a pillow, a figurine, and a small purse type thing. They were all very nice gifts and I really like them. Again, I would like to thank you all for your kind words. You people are so sweet on here.