Jamie, I am in tears too as this brings back some painful memories for me too. My best friend of 20 years was murdered by her son around 5 years ago. She too, worked on the boats like I do and she got off on Wednesday to go home to celebrate her birthday with her family that Friday, at 3 am Thursday morning, he called the fire department to report the house on fire. Friday, he was arrested, he had strangled her to death, drug her to her bedroom and set her bedroom on fire. She would have been 55 Friday and he was 31 years old and was found guilty of 2nd degree murder. When I heard she was dead and in a fire, I KNEW she had been murdered..

My delima was, I watched him grow up and I loved him too and the last time I saw them together, I told her "As long as he is alive, YOU will never die, he looks SO much like you!". I lost 2 wonderful friends that night.

So, I know your pain first hand!