Welcome so sorry it had to be like this. I have a L&W springer Merlin. Hes my 2nd personal one (family used to raise them) I had a b&w cocker 16 yrs old I had to send to the rb bridge due to health reasons.that was 25yrs ago I still do talk with her and miss her. My mom did a painting of her . It helps we have great artists her perhaps in the future you could get one of them to paint you a memory for you from photos.
Sending you{{{{HUG}}}}