Lisa, I'm so sorry for your loss. I want to share a miraculous story with you. Several years ago, a cat loving friend of mine was dying of cancer. She had a purebred Siamese cat that I would vaccinate for FVRCP when I could for Janet. This was one very highstrung, and aggressive cat, but I managed a time or two to give her her shot. When Janet was dying, her family and friends visited her at her apartment and talked with her, but no one could even look at the cat without nearly getting attacked. She was even aggressive with Janet at times. Janet passed away after a terribly long drawn out illness, and her sister Rena from Florida was going to be taking Janet's Siamese. I told them when the time came to get Miss Fiesty (not her name) contained, to call me. Within a few minutes of Janet's passing, the cat suddenly became very sweet, and climbed into Rena's lap, and was easily put into a carrier.No need to call on Trapper Jan. I'm convinced that Janet's soul somehow passed into her cat, and we all thought that. The transformation was spooky to say the least. Rena still has her sisters cat, and her and her husband take her everywhere with them. Kitties know when we hurt, and they are the best therapy for aching hearts. Gather all yours around you and cry all you need to into their fur. We'll all be here when you need us. ((((HUGS))) and (((PURRS))) Jan