Mandy, I am glad that you realized that you needed to stop. My friend and I were talking about it one night on msn. LOTS of people think its disgusting and vile, and the people are sick that do it. I think they have to be hurting a lot inside to do that to themselves, and I don't think they are sick or crazy or whatever. I do think though that when they start though and it becomes a way to deal with their emotions, they have a hard time recognizing their emotions and know how to deal with them in a healthy way (when they try to stop).