Jen, I have been sick with the stomach flu these past few days and really do not feel up to posting just yet, but when I read your heartfelt thread that brought me to tears, I just had to respond to yours.
These are a few things that I have picked up along the way when I am feeling down and have lost all hope that somewhat helped me get through my times of depression and I hope and pray that just a part of it helps you also.
Jen, try to focus on the positive things in your life and above all, DON'T listen to the negative voices in your head and you'll be happier.
Do not let your heart be heavy, no one on earth is perfect.
Life is full of setbacks, everything happens for a reason and often our failures can lead us to success.
The key to happiness is not fixing your problems, but changing your attitude towards your problems.
Sometimes you can't choose how you feel, but you can choose what to do about it.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend may seem, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and how you deal with the hurt , whether you can forgive them or not, makes a diference.
Also, your life can be changed in a matter of hours, by people who don't even know you.
I don't know you personally Jen, only through Pet Talk. Through the years of reading your threads and posts, I have gotten to know a very kind, caring, loving, selfless and gentle soul, who is loved by so many people. It hurt me so much when I read that you hate yourself. Find something Jen to love in yourself. Others already have.
Also sending a much needed (((((HUG))))) your way.

Another thing Jen.....WE ALL LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!