Oh Kim, I know exactly how you feel! When I lost my kitty Bilbo, I was the same way. I had to take time off work. Just when I thought I was okay, I would find a little clump of his fur behind a pillow or something and then start crying again. I ended up making a scrapbook of him to look at when I missed him with pics and bits of fur and his whiskers from my whisker box. After a while it made me feel better. I still have a framed pic on the fridge and it has been almost 12 years. Tucker is not gone. He will always be with you no matter where you are.
(((((((hugs)))))))))
Autumn