I am so sorry you are going through this. I know how hard it is to lose a great companion. You may never know why you had to let him go, but you did do the right thing, And now he is at the RB without any pain and I am sure he really apprieciates you letting him go. I hope that you find the comfort that you need, to help you fill this void you are feeling. I offer my *HUGS* and I will continue to pray for you, Tucker and your family. I wish I could say more, but I just dont know what to say to make it stop hurting. I know it is hard to think of the good times, because it hurts to think of them, but you just need time to grieve, And I feel so bad I just hope that time will help heal your wounds, and I hope that you know that MANY of us here at PT look up to you, and think that you are a kind loving and compassionate person, who does rescue out of her heart, for no other reason other than love for helpless animals, who cant help themselves. I look up to you. *HUGS* Katie