Thanks everyone for your kind words.
I've been thinking about this all day and hadn't opened the thread because I didn't want to think aobut it THAT much. I just started crying again.

We brought Kiara to the dog park, and when we got home, Simba was so excited to see me even though I was only go for aobut a half hour - 45 minutes.

He kept whining and whining to me, as if he wanted to go outside. He was capable of going out on his own, because we have the house open, but he insisted that I come and would not leave me alone. So I went outside with him and sat on the deck, and him and me were as happy as could be.

I just never want him to go.. I never want the girls to go.
And it's something I just can't stop thinking about.
I actually talked to my friend about it today. She asked what I would do if it did happen. I told her I didn't know. And I don't know. I just can't see life without him. He's been there for me through so much... so much. He let me hug and kiss him, and drip all of the snot and tears on him as I wanted... He let me dress him up for laughter. He's my best friend, and sometimes I feel as if he's my only true friend. I get so much comfort and relief in hugging him. I feel safe around him. I feel happy around him.

I'll shut up now because I honestly could just go on forever.