My first love was in high school. For 5 years, whenever I saw her my heart would stop, my tongue would get tied, and I'd just want to throw my arms around her. However, to this day, she never knew how I felt. I had already come out, and was fairly open about it. But she had several boyfriends. So I never said a word. Then, about a year after we graduated she came out to me in an email. I all but jumped thru the computer and throttled her! Still I didn't say a thing about how I had loved her all those years. And even tho i love Bella with all my heart, every once in a great while I get a twinge of "what if". It will probably be years, if ever, before I get to see her again, her being in Australia and all.

But besides Leanne, Bella is my true love, my soulmate and my world. I wouldn't trade what I have with her for anything.