How stressful for you, and what a rough time you have been having lately. Please try to keep in mind though the old adage that it's always darkest before the light. I know that for me some of my best life-changing moments occurred after a very dark time.

One of my favorite songs to listen to for inspiration when everything is going wrong is "Things Can Only Get Better" by Howard Jones. The refrain:

And do you feel scared - I do
But I won't stop and falter
And if we threw it all away
Things can only get better

I hope you find some answers and can find that light at the end of the tunnel soon. I think Karen has given you some wonderful advice as well. You'll be in my prayers.