I'm supposed to be packing this morning, but it just hit me like a ton of bricks. She's gone, she's really gone is all I could think of when I woke up. I started bawling then and couldn't stop. I had myself so worked up that I began to throw up. I can't beleave she is gone. I keep going in and seeing my three baby girls and looking for my forth, but she's not there, and she never will be again. I just wish there was something I could have done.

Thanx for your replys everyone, they made me feel better.

Ash