I'm so sorry to hear that - I know you must be feeling the loss immeasurably.
When I think about Sophie's life (she's 19 at the moment), I know she won't have a lot longer left, but I will be happy that she has had such a good life and has lived so long. I hope that among these dark times, you will hold those thoughts and smile when you think about Pep.
If you need to talk about him, please do so through PT - you know there is a lot of support for you here.
Once again, sorry for your loss.