oh Varga, don't blame yourself. You did what you thought was best, and you know and we know that Kelly still loved you. I know how you feel in a way. Last year, late in the school year, our cat Coco died. She was killed almost on our driveway by a husky named Wako. Aftert that, i had a scary dream that i saw Coco running, and i ran after her, to see if it was her ghost. it was eerie, and it still scares me. You aren't alone, Varga! I'll be praying for you, and Have a nice time at the RB Kelly! maybe you will meet Coco, Sammy, Rutger, Ranger, and Fluffy there!